...and on sunday, i held a girl's hand.



i don't know if i know how to do this anymore. Who plays with broken toys?




songift:"Volcano" - Damien Rice

"Don't hold yourself like that
cause You'll hurt your knees
well I kissed your mouth, and back
But that's all I need
Don't build your world around
Volcanoes melt you down

And What I am to you is not real
What I am to you, you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for the sea

Don't throw yourself like that
In front of me
I kissed your mouth, your eyes
Is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around
Volcanoes melt me down

What I am to you is not real
What I am to you, you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask
What I give to you is just what I'm going through
This is nothing new, no, no just another phase of finding
what I really need is what makes me bleed
But like a new disease, Lord, she's still too young to treat
Volcanoes melt you down
She's still too young +what iam to you+you do not need+is not real
I kissed your mouth
You do not need me"




.

"Every night I tell myself,
I am the cosmos,
I am the wind
But that dont get you back again

Just when I was starting to feel okay
Youre on the phone
I never wanna be alone

Never wanna be alone
I hate to have to take you home
Wanted too much to say no, no,
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Never wanna be alone
I hate to have to take you home
Want you too much to say no, no
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah

My feelings always happening
Something I couldnt hide
I cant confide
Dont know whats going on inside

So every night I tell myself
I am the cosmos,
I am the wind
But that dont get you back again

Id really like to see you again
I really wanna see you again
Id really like to see you again
I really wanna see you again
Id really like to see you again
I really wanna see you again
I never wanna see you again
Really wanna see you again"


today's songift:"I Am The Cosmos" - Big Star

Worried about my padawan, and vapor trails always make me think about my Rocket Scientist.

raw from self-destruction
tired of trying to be fixed

and i keep looking back at my hand.


got my ass handed to me at Scrabble last night. twice.
financial aid meeting in 1 hour.
starhead practice tonight.
2 job interviews tomorrow.
starhead playsHailey's fri night.
work in the comic shop all day sat.



recording the fucking album on sunday.
recording the fucking album on sunday.
recording the fucking album on sunday.


hongry, now.